Sunday, February 22, 2015

What we do for family...

Saturday night we all went to dinner at a yummy italian restaurant in Selma, CA called G's.  I recommend it, after all there aren't too many places to eat in Selma.  My little fam, my sis and nephew CJ, our cousin Ashley, Dad and Gramps all met for dinner after they attended mass.  

Cute bunch, right?  

Anyhow, CJ my sweet, sweet nephew asked me if I would consider giving something up for Lent.  Bless this child.  Now, I am not Catholic, but this boy proposed Lent to me as a personal challenge.  His argument was that I give something up for Lent; if I partake in said item during Lent I must put $1.00 in a jar and at the end of Lent he will donate the money to charity!  I mean how do you argue with that logic?  Did I mention that this kid is only 10 years old?  I told him that I need to think about it because I was not sure what I would give up.  The peanut gallery (aka. the kidlets) chimed in and said I should give up Diet Pepsi. For-the-love! 

Those of you who know me well, know that I am a wee bit addicted to Diet Pepsi.  It is one of my vices and I will not deny the fact.  Maple and Brown Sugar Quaker Oatmeal is my other vice.  I have a tendency to get into a food rut and eat the same thing several times a day.  Now that you know the back story, I will fast forward to Sunday.  

CJ was at our house bright and early to attend church.  As we were getting ready to leave, I told CJ that I had considered his proposal and that I was willing to give up Diet Pepsi and oatmeal.  I told him that I would have to start on Monday morning because I had already had a Diet Pepsi at 9am!

So, my friends of the next 41 days I will go without Diet Pepsi or Oatmeal.  I am super nervous to go without my vices but know the overall health benefits are worth it.  

I have 1 hour and 16 minutes until I have to start my personal "Lent."  I've gotta go and crack open another DP before the strike of midnight!  Wish me and my family luck; lets be honest, my fam is going to encounter the backlash of Mama going cold turkey!!  

Bye-bye Diet Pepsi, I will miss you!!


Thursday, February 19, 2015

The struggle is REAL...

Some of you know what my daily struggle is, for those of you who don't, since my first brain surgery 26 months ago I have been in chronic pain everyday.  My doctors are working to help me deal with my pain, so we will see.  

That is enough about that!  This Mama is going CRAZY in our house!!  I dream everyday of living tiny.  While that is a dream for the future, I am thinking what can we do in the present is to PURGE our house!!  Now, I don't have many days where I feel up to purging, organizing and cleaning but I when I do, man, the desire is intense!!  I have so many ideas, Pins on Pinterest, and articles that I have read on the Internet but I don't have a PLAN!!  I need a Plan!! I don't even know where to begin.  

My brain (not that it's trustworthy) says to start in the room everyone sees, the living room but my gut says to start in the room that only the hubs and I see.  It is so easy to neglect our bedroom and bathroom because no one else sees it.  Waking up and going to bed in an unorganized, overly stuffed room everyday cannot be conducive to my sanity.  So, I am working on a plan to purge, organize and clean our master "suite."  I am not certain how our bed/bathroom can be considered a "suite" when we live 1690 square feet.  I digress, my plan:

  1. Clean out and organize our closets. (Yes, we have 2 in our bedroom and I am not the one with clothes in both) If WE haven't worn or used an item within the last 6 months, its going in the donation bin.  This includes all clothes, shoes, and accessories.  Ugh!!  
  2. Purge and clean our desk.  Holy smokes we accumulate so much paper!!!  I despise paper.  
  3. Purge, organize and clean the vanity in our bathroom.  Do you think we could throw away beauty products from Y2K?  
  4. Lastly, thanks to my BIL & SIL who bought a Rainbow vacuum before they met Dave... I am cleaning our carpets!!  
Like I said, the struggle is REAL!! 

Please pray for all of us as we live through this process.  


Thursday, April 17, 2014

Operation: Dylan's Loft Bed

This adorable kid is going to be 7 years old on May 1, 2014! How in the world did this happen?  Let me tell you, this boy has my whole heart.  His cute smile makes any frustration that I have completely go away.  When he calls me Mama, I think it is the name I like the most.

Seriously, doesn't he melt your heart?

Anyhow, we did not want to get this kid another toy for his birthday because let's me honest, he has enough!  About 2 months ago, he started talking about wanting a bunk bed with a laboratory underneath.  If you know this crazy kid you know that his imagination is extensive.  Operation: Build Dylan's Loft Bed came to furition.  The hubs and I searched the Internet to find plans to help us put our plan into play.  We stumbled upon Ana White and oh my stars this lady has plans. This is the look we are going with:

Today we spent a good hour at Lowes getting supplies for this project.  I must say trying to concentrate with two wild kids hanging around is hard! I hope we got everything we need, if not Lowes is just a car ride away.  Here is a picture of my wild animal bunch getting the wood.

Please cross your fingers and say a prayer that this actually works out and the hubs and I don't argue through the entire process.

Now, where are those power tools?

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Luke Bryan

Okay ladies, I must make a confession, I have a crush on Luke Bryan.  And yes, the hubs is aware.  Yes, he is handsome but there is just something about his music that makes me want to get up and DANCE!  Did you catch him this morning on GMA with Robin Roberts?  Those lucky ducks got a concert in Nashville, TN.  BTW, going to Nashville is on my personal bucket list!  Thankfully the hubs is easy and will go practically anywhere, so he won't be hard to convince.  

Anyhow, I got to thinking about music and how much country music is part of who I am.  I love all music but county is by far my go to music genre.  For so long Madison thought KISS Country was the only radio station in Fresno.  There are so many great and talented artist in country that have such impactive lyrics.  They are multi faceted with their talents; they can sing, play an instrument and perform.  

What is your go to music genre?  Does it depend on your mood?  

Sound off!


Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Being Thankful in the Month of November

Here we are on November 5th and so many of gracious friends are posting to Twitter and Facebook things they are thankful for everyday.  I am so grateful that those people exist in my life because they remind me to be thankful for those very same things.  I contemplated putting something on Facebook that I am thankful for everyday in the month of November then I realized how daunting that task actually was.  Primarily because most days I have no idea what the date even is!  Now, I don't want you to think that I am not thankful.  Lord, let me tell you, these last 11 months have giving me more blessings that I can count.  I have an amazing husband that I adore with all of my soul.  Two amazing children that touch my heart everyday.  A supportive and wonderful family.  A best friend that God himself blessed me with.  The coolest, funniest, uplifting, and helpful group of friends a gal could ask for.  I know that I am blessed.  So, instead of making myself nuts trying to remember to post something everyday, here we are on November 5, 2013 and I want you all to know that you are special to me and that you have impacted my life and for that I am thankful.


Monday, November 4, 2013

Hey y'all!

Sorry that I have been MIA! So much has been going on around here! Football, dance, doctors appointments, surgeries, more doctors appointments, more surgeries, blah, blah, blah! Anyhow, yesterday we celebrated our girls' 9th birthday! Holy heck, how is that possible? She spent the entire doing her thing dancing at the KAR convention (which she loved) and then we threw her an impromtu surprise birthday party!  

Yesterday as I watched her perform at Showcase and I couldn't help but ask myself "am I doing enough for her?"  "am I giving her what she needs?"  I guess basically what I am asking myself is "am I enough?"  How many Moms out there ask themselves that same question?  Am I enough?  We have become a society of trying to prove ourselves to everyone, our classmates, our friends, our family, our bosses, when do we stop the madness and say, "I am enough!"  

Don't feel alone if you cannot say that you are enough.  This is a constant battle I have with myself everyday.  It comes out strongest with my daughter.  I want to be enough for her.  I want her to look back on her childhood and be able to say I gave her every tool she needed to become a successful adult.  Rationally, I know that is not plausible.  I know that she will encounter things in her life that she is not prepared for, but I want to help her be strong enough to battle through it all.  

 I pray everyday that I will find the wisdom, guidance and the strength to wrestle this demon that I torture myself with.  I do know one thing, I love that girl something fierce; therefore, I will NEVER give up the fight! Someday I will convince myself that I am enough!


Friday, June 7, 2013

God give me strength

The Lord has been testing me today.  I have been blessed with two gorgeous and amazing children.  He gave me a girl first and I often wonder why.  My sweet girl, Madison who I refer to as Lu is 8 1/2 years old.  She is getting older and more mature every day and that scares the hell out of me.  When I found out that I was pregnant with a little girl I was over the moon.  I thought it was going to be so amazing to have a little person to dress up, to take to dance, to paint her nails.  Don't get me wrong all of those things are totally awesome.  The hardest part of being a mom to a girl is the constant feeling of inadequacy.  I am always questioning my abilities as her mom. Am I doing what is best for her? Am I teaching her to like herself?  This is by far the most stressful job I have ever had.  Above everything I want to be sure that she always feels comfortable enough to talk to me about anything and I really thought I meant anything.  That was until today...

Here is my sweet cheerleader!!
She is fearless!

In my quest to provide an open line of communication with my daughter I bit off more than I can chew.  I am big enough to admit it.  However, this is my girl, so today when she wanted to "talk" to me about a few things in private I had to pull up my big girl panties and jump in.  Apparently she had a recent conversation with one of her girlfriends that is a little older about boobs.  Why is it no matter how old women are we always want bigger boobs?  Amongst the myriad of questions I received my favorite was, "Mom, why do old boys have boobs and why are they hairy?" Goodness!! 

There is my sweet girl again!

I am about to turn 34 years old in a week.  I have found 2 gray hairs to date and have a feeling that the next year is going to bring on a LOT more.  I love this girl to pieces and I want to do everything to make sure that she grows up to be everything that she wants to be.  Ahh... the pressure!

I will be searching for grays!!!